Sunday, October 11, 2015
Sometimes, no actually..
most of the times, we get so engrossed in things that don't bloom.
keep repeating those redundant actions, useless stuff.
when i look around, i tend to feel like i'm always overwhelmed with the people around me.
i feel inferior, most the time.
i can't really help it either.
i'm doing things in circles.
always contradicting myself, my words, my thoughts, my decisions.
like nothing i ever did was right.
all the dreams i ever had..
will only be dreams because i don't take that first step.
opening a cafe, being a barista, taking masters.
i liked so much to be in control, to know what i'm doing.
and doing things right on the first try.
there are so many things i would want to change about my life.
but i don't.
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anyway, yesterday was john's weddings.
after seeing so many wedding videos, they kinda have the same flow..
only difference is the people in the video..
they all look very sweet in it anyway.
so loving.
when i think about it.
i doubt mine will be that sweet.
i'm so numb, i don't exactly feel a lot these days from my life..
i feel more from like dramas/animes. :x
perhaps i take things too much for granted.
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~can't wait for my one month holiday~
Innocence
11:43 PM
