Sunday, March 09, 2014
everything happen for a reason..
feeling down these days..
mayb its the haze, or mayb its juz another reason to let myself emo..
immerse myself in the mix of feelings.
losing control of my own stance..
been reminded of many stuff..
places that i've been to.
the things i did..
all the waste of time spent brooding over things that'll never happen..
i know i have no reason to be feeling all these..
yet i felt all these like going back in time..
it's funny how every drama i watch can relate to me.
i tink i'm more of hallucinating all these rubbish..
things that'll nvr ever happen..
if my life is a music player, i would juz spam the "fast forward" or "next" button..
till the end.
y is time passing by so slowly..
yet in a blink of an eye, we all grew up and grew old..
distance...distant..
closer and closer to my end..
cant wait til my life ends..
at least i dun have to make my thoughts go round n round..
that emo vicious cycle.
yay two weeks to my holiday to batam..
a short one.
hope i can clear my heart and mind a lil more..
this japan trip..
izt happening?
i dunno.
i dunno how to start planning.
i have no idea where to start..
nope haven buy ticket..
nope, haven book hotels..
nopes. we hardly know where we're going even..
i have alot of plans..
but i dunno if they will accept them..
i mean i dun really wanna waste their time over there..
and i dunno if i'll be unconsciously forcing them to go...
its so near yet...
i cant confirm if we're even having a trip..
i juz got a feeling this time it will not work as well as taiwan..
meh.. its a weird group to start with..
but yet i dun have the courage to go on my own..
pui. lousy me.
oh well..
all i got from watching the LEGO movie,
was.... mayb.. juz mayb.. all the time that i tot i was impt..
was all juz illusion..
mayb ppl dun even remember me..
i'm juz a plain commoner...
not a special.
nothing special.
yeah. mayb.
FUCK YEA,
the amount of negativity in my life..
is...... TOO DAMN HIGH. :(
~wake up and get well, stupid brain~
Innocence
11:44 PM
