Wednesday, September 11, 2013
heyo, hows life?
my work has been piling up like hell...
i got no time to work/study/play...
so no life. :(
its been raining heavily these days..
was nvr that terrified of thunders and lightnings...
duno wad happened to me, instill this fear thingy..
now i dun like the thunders and lightnings..
so i went to read up..
and the only way to overcome it is to face it..
den i tink about life.
how i always look high into the sky and low onto the ground..
dun like to see ppl catching a glimpse of wad i'm doing...
i juz dun like to be judged by ppl...
esp those hu dunno me. :x
i dun like to face problems, i prefer running away.
mayb cux i used to be so carefree and too open to others..
that i couldnt see them judging me.
bleh. den i faced these ppl, and move on..
feeling a lil more sensitive to other ppl..
thinking for other ppl...
den someday i stopped and think..
what is the point if i always think for them and no one thinks for me..?
blah blah hu cares anyway..
so whatever, i do what i feel is right loh.
to a dear colleague hu will not see this but whatever..
i'm close to you doesnt mean u dun need to respect my name..
all i wan is u to call me like any other person, NORMALLY.. =.="
i'm getting pissed off with this.
and you can come telling me how ppl call u names. -.-"
KARMA la.
i was so sure i was unique long ago.
a special someone..
but after i slowly grow up..
i realised, NAH, in the end everyone is the same.
we all are the same..
no one is ever THAT unique anyway.
so why do i still strive to differ..?
i'll juz blend in and be everyone else.
i'm kinda getting some identity crisis...
i duno what am i living for.
like, my goals for career yes i have..
but life goals.... NONE.
live to work, work to live.
now all i can think of is a getaway with my fantasy.
go crazy someday and do stupid things.
laugh out loud from deep within my heart and go mad..
shout out stupid slogans and jump about.
MEH. life is so short, i wonder when will it ever end.
YOLO. i. must. do. stupid. things.
FML, i go sleep liaos.
-so emo elmo banana mo dynamo~
Innocence
1:22 AM
