Thursday, September 13, 2012
duno wad came over me..
i suddenly had the urge to search using frens names on google..
and suddenly... NOSTALGIA. (///^u^///)
and suddenly i find old frenx of mine..
still having my blog add under their links.
still updating their blogs.
growing up having fun going crazy..
(look who i found!!
http://wingsofthesky.blogspot.sg/)
me? i feel like a degrading idiot.
duno how but i used to treasure my frenx so much..
love them so much..
so sensitive to their every litttle discomfort and stuff..
and then, i became a selfish creep.
putting myself infront of everything.
perhaps that's y everything changed.
i haven been treating every well..
how could i expect them to treat me well..
yet i cant revert back to hu i am..
there's no going back anymore..
life should have been a little crazier,
a lil more nonsensical..
a lil more gutsy..
but the time point is gone..
and lost forever..
me? yuan di ta pu, going forward and looking back..
i juz wanna be stuck all my life.
at that one certain point of life...
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went to my JC's physics teacher's funeral last night..
Mr. Tay, he was a great teacher and always hangs a smile on his face.
he was always warm to people around him..
he doesnt show people his sad side (everyone has sad times...)
but always have this cheerful aura around him..
he is a great man, a humble one.
he lives in a private estate yet always dresses like he isnt..
seeing the number people who went to pay him respect...
he is indeed a man to be respected.
he started teaching in 1976, and spent all his life teaching.
and he was still able to maintain his cheerfulness throughout.
i respect him. :)
Rest in Peace Mr. Tay.
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then, this reminded me of my sec sch Maths teacher, Mr. Ng.
passed on a few years back, he was a great teacher as well..
and remembered in our hearts.
he's a lil grumpy, and fierce at times, bt a good teacher nonetheless.
Hope he is doing well in heaven~ :)
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seriously i shouldnt be blogging now..
but i have so much emotional stuff to share..
and i wana share without being comforted..
at least some times, leaving the pain there is better than living without any guilt..
i rather feel so guilty... so so guilty that something about me will change..
jiayou ba..
i'm gonna slim my tummy, somehow or rather..
i can do it.. without help of pills and stuff..
juz food control n exercise.. :)
jiayou ba, life's not gonna last forever..
(i'm glad it doesnt, its a pain in the ass)
so ya, i rather be doing what i like then living for everyone else..
all i ever wanted is to be free.
~life's short, how are you?~
Innocence
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