Saturday, July 26, 2008
hmmm..
the more i find out..
the more i feel sad..
haix.. its like as if my didi left..
the club n me as well...
dunno he stil remember me not?
or juz do things for sake of doing..
haix.. wad do i expect?
they nvr jio me for outing.. T_T
somemore ish dgray team de..
haix.. i dun even feel close to u all le..
like i shldnt be doing a lenalee liao..
because its initial purpose ish now..
reduced to nothingness..
not important liaox..
i'll still be doing ba..
but mayb i'll juz say i'm soloist..
not with u all..
i mean i dun exactly feel group-ish le..
or in the first place ba..
i'm starting to tink again..
about how insignificant i've always been..
exceptional to certain ppl..
but the rest are juz.......
like hi-bye-frenx..
mayb i haven exactly put in time to noe..
each n everyone of them..
after i heard bout them meeting at airport..
was like double killing me..
i dunno.. as in.......
i'm not invited, wad can i do?
i'm starting to feel hostile..
i tot it was a family..
a big family....
now its become like my real family..
no one says anything..
everyday ish juz any day..
in this case tink oni apply to me sia.. =.="
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i dun wan to pull u down..
i dun wan to be ur burden..
i dun wan u to be tied down to me..
i wan u to spend time with them..
i realised a cruel truth..
u have them..
i have u n a few others..
dat's all..
juz when i tot i could gif a lil more..
i restricted myself once again..
cux i dun wan u to juz be with me...
i'm so useless.................
i'm so insignificant..
someday u might forget me too...
and a few others too..
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as the arch angel descends beside the little angel..
the little angel was surrounded by warmth..
yet, seeing how well loved the arch angel was..
the little angel hestitated to accept this warmth..
accepting this warmth means he'll have to let go of alot others..
the little angel sinned as her selfish self overtook her..
the long awaiting warmth dat she's been looking..
yet again have came to protect her..
is this going to be the last time..?
the little angel was not convinced...
she was hurt so many times..
she could not believe wholeheartedly..
the arch angel continues to gif confirmation..
the little angel was touched by his sincerity..
and accepts the warmth of his hands..
but yet as her trouble continues to haunt her..
would she be able to live each day by his warmth?
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buey tahan..
seriously feel like shouting out..
WA LAO! GO OUT BO JIO!?!?!
but nopex..
they have no obligations to do so..
i must understand dat ba..
life's lidat.. cruel at times..
giving at times..
~u're my warmth~
Innocence
12:18 AM
