Friday, May 30, 2008
yupp. once again.
no uni.
one last try.
i'm so weak.
i'm useless.
the whole world's going to uni.
F*** except me.
i'm freaking emo now.
teik was like trying to help.
but den ya, i emo-ed away.
darn, den all of them discussing bout campus.
food n hostel. well done.
couldnt have done beta to tell me i'm not gonna be there.
they din do it on purpose.
i dun wanna say n spoil mood.
emo-ed half a day.
got my mood.
den emo-ed the other half.
jap lesson rawks.
but u noe.
when someone hu claims to noe lesser den u do beta den u.
its an arrow into the heart.
yup. constant arrows shooting at me.
i dun blame anyone.
juz blame myself.
for the stupidity.
i'm dumb.
i hope i die soon.
F*** this pathetic life.
looks. wad?
sori marui.
guess i've suan-ed u alot.
was rude again to ya today.
mayb i couldnt stand the fact dat u're good in everything.
i'm jealous ba.
u have great family.
great friends.
be glad u're dat height.
dat's something i can nvr reach.
u're smart.
i'm not.
u're clumsy, who's not?
not as if i nvr do wrong.
juz dunno y keep suanin u.
haix. i very useless.
vince once told me.
ppl see those petite ppl as cute.
see ppl like me as one to be F***ed.
dunno how true is dat.
nobody cares la.
F*** la..
its the stubborn-ness in me.
all i wan is u to care bout me.
but u nvr did.
i feel so empty now.
how long more can i fight this?
how long more can i fight alone?
i dun wanna.
i wanna leave.
i'm unwanted.
i wanna go away.
i juz wanna go away.
let me rot.
i'm envious of happy people.
i lose my will to be happy.
i've lost my goal to make ppl happy.
i'm nothing now.
but a empty human shell.
can i let go of my soul.
i dun wanna compare anymore.
either way i'm nothing.
nothing compared to the rest.
~yes. i'm freaking emo, leave me freaking alone~
Innocence
10:34 PM
