Saturday, December 08, 2007
the past again.. =((
gomen..
tot i told myself not to emo..
i failed.. alas.. again..
it started from going to a random bbq..
den i remembered the last time..
sean insisted on going wid me..
haix.. its juz the past..
den listening to songs..
den suddenly weiji tell me to send sean dat song..
wa kao.. the emo feeling reali hit me..
arrgh.. haix..
den go on a full blast emo but high..
budden high is trying to remove emo..
n apparently failed to do so..
ended up drinking 8% vodka..
so sianx la.. not drunk..
made me tink even more clearly..
den i cried the whole night..
cux i tot bout the past n everything..
again..
i noe it always made me sad..
but sometimes i juz cant avoid..
i noe u wud say i'm dumb..
tinking bout past n gets upset bout it..
but i reali dun have much of any future to tink bout..
arr.. not even much of a present..
jasmine juz called me..
asked me bout some blog stuff..
assumptions...
everywhere all the time..
nvr noe which is real..
dun tink so much la...
not everything is ur problem de..
hmmm.. hope u dun leave me alone for EOY..
i'll be quite sad..
i mean i expected 4 ppl from our side..
ended up like left me n u oni le..
den u gg holiday...
haix..
seeing is believing..
i noe u believe me now..
but still i lost my own bet..
so.. it doesnt reali matter now..
making my bed so comfy..
putting alot of soft toys beside..
having 2 blankets and more soft toys..
trying to make myself warm..
all those nvr reali did..
quite sad..
meows.. i wan warmth...
~U~
Innocence
11:30 PM
