Monday, May 23, 2005
wadever la.. damn sad sia.. juz 8 more days til o level chinese.. damn scared.. started studying but stil nid alot more practice.. went out in the afternoon wif gwenny go study.. den like boring sia.. keep studying.. den we drink... den after one hour of intensive studying.. i go n disturb my dear bloopie.. haha.. den we eat.. den i use her hp cal kenneth... den damn funny sia... den keep toking to him.. den like funny sia.. put loudspeaker den oni can hear 3 words correctly.. "ta ma de".. how nice.. argh.. den later weimin oso same thing.. oni can hear 3 words.. oh ya.. tmr weimin's b'dae.. wahaha.. izt gonna be a joke? haha.. wadever.. well.. guess wad.. i juz now juz go n read say lay blog.. den i suddenly felt very sad for myself.. but damn happy for them.. she n her da ben dan.. 10 months.. woahs.. guess i'm juz plain envious.. den the way she felt bout things.. it's the same way i felt last time too.. juz dat mine came to be worse.. dat's y no happy ending.. den i tink i can juz guess dat HE got something to do wif this SX.. hmm.. because..........source A: 17th of may 2005.. on say lay's blog.. got something bout the person sending things.. blah.. read urself wadever.. source B: 9th of may 2005.. on my own blog.. wahaha.. his dear frenz asking him to take care of this SX person.. so.. source C: it's been known to me.. darn...someone lied to me.. aiyah.. so dat he wun hurt me.. or so that i wun hurt her..?? wadever.. i'm trying hard not to give a hoot.. but den hor.. like i wun do anything.. its juz my feelings is getting reali mixed up... i dunno to wish them well or be evil n curse the her.. alamak.. haha.. forget it la.. i gave up on like.... love...i dun care if he noes anot..
i dun care if he cares bout me not..
i dun care if he loves someone else..
i dun care if that someone is not me..
i dun care if he is sweet to her..
i dun care if she is sweet to him..
i dun care if they love each other..
i dun care if they do things together..
i dun care if they haf fun together..
i dun care how they're doing now..
or at least.. i TRY not to care.. aiyahs.. i noe la.. i still left an impt place in my heart for him.. not known to him.. but i guess.. even if its empty.. no one wil get there again.. aiyahs..ok.. after typing all these is making me feel damn guilty.. feel like i'm trying to be someone reali evil n break them up.. and also.. saying all these when i............ aiyahs.. i reali think i shld give up on love.. at least for now.. but.. i juz duno.. i mean.. i dun haf dat special bond.. there's juz no US in the picture... i noe of me being sacarstic n all.. but hu's the sadist.. kaoz.. like i mean nothing in this world.. y are other ppl always so bonded with their other ppl.. wad the heck am i toking bout?!?! ok.. since i'm having a great swing.. juz forget wad i say.. anywayz.. me is damn scared of chinese... B3 for mid yr.. aiming for A1.. muz jia you loh.. ~am i the oni sadist here? wad's my meaning of life?~
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♫ Innocence ♫
Innocence stolen without my permission
Innocence gone without my submission
Innocence lost through another’s plan
Innocence no longer for another man
Innocence turned to hatred and fear
Innocence gone, no man can come near
Innocence taken from a little girl’s heart
Innocence replaced by mistrust, you thought you were smart
Innocence disappears like dew in the sun
Innocence faded before it’s begun
Innocence obscured like a cloud over the moon
Innocence ripped away too soon
